One of my favorite phrases was; “I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.” And I used that phrase up until a few years ago! I have been grown for quite some time, but I never really knew what it was I was supposed to do, or that I was good at. I used to envy those who said they have known since they were kids that they wanted to be a certain profession or accomplish a certain thing in their life.
I figured out that if I had stopped and reflected on my life and my experiences I may have understood what my role in life was far before now. However, I was too busy doing life, working, taking care of my family, and just being. I had dreams and aspirations, but I still didn’t know exactly what they were. But I knew it was more than what I was experiencing.
I had to find out where I was in order to understand where I was going. And God helped me with that, but it was after a terrible, long, bout with depression that He showed me my purpose. Seems ironic I know, but until I knew where I was or had been and understood all the experiences that I had suffered I couldn’t grasp the purpose that God had for my life.
The first thing that God had to show me was me. Like the caterpillar’s journey to becoming a butterfly, my life had to be broken down (literally it was during the depression) just like when the caterpillar goes into the cocoon. When the caterpillar goes into the cocoon (chrysalis), its safe place, it is broken down and liquified and it begins its change. There in the midst of the depression I began my change. The caterpillar knows their purpose and destiny is to become a butterfly. But for me I didn’t know what my life would become after that. I didn’t even know if I would make it out of that stage of my change. But you know what, I only could depend on God that He would see me through and that my friends was my life-changing lesson. God was the only one that I could depend on from that point forward.
So you see, knowing where you are right now is very important to your process of transforming. This is your opportunity to seek God for what it is that He has for your life and start living an extraordinary life with purpose! I wouldn’t have chosen the path of depression as my lesson to find out my purpose and my worth, but today I wouldn’t change my experience for the world. It was there that I learned to cling to God and our relationship has become one I would never want to lose.
Where are you today, do you know?
The Butterfly Journey – Lisa

