the butterfly journey

From Broken to Beautiful Series Part II – 3 Lessons I Learned While Writing “The Butterfly’s Journey”

Growing through life, there is always a lesson to be learned.  But only if you are wise enough to seek it. 

Often, we don’t see hardships or uncomfortable situations as lessons, but they are lessons all the same.  If we are curious enough to learn from them, we can not only conquer them but also experience true growth and maturity.

That’s what I desired when I walked through the healing process from my spiritual depression.  I wanted to know why I ended in a depressive state, especially when I knew God.

Here are three lessons I learned while writing my book, “The Butterfly’s Journey”.

  1. I knew God, but my intimacy level with Him was not where it should’ve been. I didn’t have the reverential fear or holy fear that He deserves, because after all, He is the sovereign God, the Creator of the universe.
  2. I didn’t understand my worth.  I thought I had to do whatever to please others.  And in the midst of pleasing others, I totally lost myself. Plus, I almost lost my eternal inheritance from God.
  3. God’s redeeming grace and unconditional love. When I look back on this period of my life, the things I allowed to happen in me and through me were horrible.  My actions grieved the Lord, and I felt ashamed. But His grace, hallelujah, was there to help me back up and gave me another chance to get it right.

No matter where you are on your journey, I want to remind you that you are not alone.  God is always there with you, even if He seems silent.  Just know that you are not too far away that God can’t reach you.   But we must have a desire to turn (repent) and come back to God, so that He can heal our brokenness and turn our lives into beautiful ones, as He intended.

Be blessed,

Lisa M Walker

depression, God, healing and deliverance

Depression Almost Killed Me – Part 1

blackwomantearsI never imagined that my life would take such a drastic turn and leave me struggling to stay alive, but it did.

Over 5 years ago, I found myself empty, lonely, and scared.  Life had somehow made a wrong turn and I was spiraling down a dark hole before I even knew what was happening.

Even though it seemed that it all happened in a blink of an eye, I know it didn’t.  It was days, months, and even years building up to finally fully embrace me and by then it was too late to escape.  Always an optimistic person, seeing live full of promises and dreams, I didn’t believe that depression could attack someone like myself.  But slowly it found me and it took every good thing from me.  I was engulfed in its overwhelming darkness with no idea of how to get back to the person I once was.

For a couple of years it took all the things that I loved to do and made them far away memories in my cloudy mind.  I clung to the memories of a better time, but soon they eluded me and all I had was a pit of darkness surrounding me.  With small groans and moans of desperation I cried out in prayer to God for deliverance from this place that was threatening my very life.  It was all that I could do. . .

This is just a small part of my story and I will share more as the days go by.  I pray that my testimony will be a part of your healing if you are suffering from depression today.  Be encouraged, there is hope!

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Lisa ~ The Butterfly Journey/Christian Life Coach/Writer