One thing that I noticed about myself since I was delivered from the depths of depression, is that I am very aware of my feelings more. I know when I am about to feel that overwhelming feeling that causes me to start to feel defeated. I don’t like the feeling at all, but I am glad that now I can recognize it very clearly and act appropriately.
God has given me a censor (discernment) to know when I am getting in a place that is not good for me and I stop. I stop right where I am and I pray and ask God to give me the strength and wisdom I need to push pass that place. You see before I didn’t understand what that feeling meant and I would allow it to take over me and put me in a place of despair and if I wasn’t careful, it would take me right back to depression.
I am so glad though that God loves me enough to help me in every situation whether big or small. I am glad that He is there for me when nobody else may understand. I can depend on Him. That is one of main lessons that I learned when I came out of my depression was I didn’t have to rely on a person to be there because God was there with me every single day of my 730 day journey in depression. He was the only one there as a matter of fact and I never would have made it if He wasn’t there with me.
Wow, I could go on page after page telling you about God’s goodness towards me especially during that time because it changed my life. But I will leave that for you to read in my book: The Butterfly’s Journey, releasing in April 2012.
The Butterfly Journey – Lisa
